Submission without Conditions

“I want to put myself absolutely at your mercy for good or evil without any condition, without any limit to your power.”

— Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, Venus in Furs

Isn’t this the ultimate fantasy for most submissives? Offering all of the power they have, turning over every decision to an authority figure, no limits, no safewords. I think the appeal is that we have found a person we can trust to do those things with, more than the acts involved. We seek someone we don’t have to monitor, who can read our thoughts, our bodies, so that we may float away from the stress of the decisions we have to make, the lives we have to lead.

Logically, I know that this would only work for contained periods of time. There are too many moving pieces to my life, too many things that I cannot walk away from, that I have to be in control of. Work and school and my child top that list. Since my marriage ended, I am focused on becoming fiercely financially independent. I also refuse to do no way out relationships; I find them a foolish fantasy because every relationship ends in some way.

But for a little while? It is a very hot fantasy to offer up all that I have, to have Miss be the center of my focus and attention. When we added higher levels of protocol to our contract, this was part of the feeling in mind. There is a need inside me to give up all that I am, all power I hold to someone willing to take it. To leave myself empty and utterly calm so that I might be refilled with all the essence of…