When Your Service Heart Feels Out of Reach

There are a few different ways to approach service as a submissive. You can approach a task feeling disgruntled, irritated by the necessity of it or the time it takes you. Perhaps the task is something unpleasant, a chore that you especially dislike, or you resent it being assigned to you. Another approach is a sort of push-through-this state of mind. While the task isn’t unpleasant, you find it difficult to have a healthy state of mind for it. You get the job done, barely pausing to think about it, and don’t connect it with the service aspect of your dynamic.

The final mindset is one of joy and peace. I often find, when I can reach this space, that the content of the task doesn’t matter. What matters instead is the connection that the task provides, the link between my Miss and I. This is the ideal state of mind for me in terms of service.

Several of the journal prompts I have had lately have led me to write about my mindset in terms of service and submission. While I would like to tell you that it is easy for me to be of service, that the peace and joy mind set is a state I regularly find myself in, I don’t want to lie. I often struggle internally with how I feel during an act of service, especially those that involve caring for myself in my Miss’s absence.

I lead a very busy life most days. I maintain a job that is turning into a career, I’m finishing a degree in psychology, I have a child that requires extra care, I’m in the middle of a divorce, I write frequently, and I’m a devoted…